In life we are dealing with positive or forward mathematics calculations of movement. The reverse computation of mathematical movement is not being revealed and this is why we get cancer and we get old and have to struggle learning things. The homosexuals can do the reverse computation somehow. I sodomized myself long ago for about 5 years and because of that the enemy cannot use the reverse computation of what I did so I have power over them and I don't feel guilty now because that was meant to happen. The truth will now be forced to reveal the truth and the truth about love will be known. Normally my thoughts are reverted and when that does not happen the anxiety attack occurs. If this is difficult to read for some of you please pardon me and understand that I am a schizophrenic.