Bai RAA, we are all canecuttahs here just shooting the breeze. Well, at least we Coolies are all canecuttahs. Blacks stopped cutting cane since de mid 19th century. People participate in things that interest them. If your book is not selling, it does not necessarily mean that it is not a good book. It may just be that it has not attracted the interest of others. As much as you would like to share your thoughts of your struggles with others and as much as you truly believe that doing so may provide some avenues to help you through your struggles, don't place all your hopes in it. Keep doing what you have been doing and wait for the moment when your cure/relief comes.
Our nephew was in a car accident back in 2010 which made him an incomplete C4 spinal injury patient. He has been confined to a bed since but he is still hoping that someday, his relief and cure will come. In the meantime, he is enrolled in college where he does all his classes online by typing on his laptop using a dot placed on his forehead that he matches to a keyboard on his monitor. So you know his typing speed is even slower than my two fingers typing but he is still keeping the hope alive. I wish you all the best too. Never give up hope.