And why don't you be more open and brave and address me by the false name given to me by a 'red' N at Comenius Moravian because I was.malnourished and fell, not sat, on the low bench we all sat upon, 'babalaps goatshit'? This was.encouraged by the female teacher, another 'red' N, but of a darker hue, from the home of true Indo hate, Buxton, the sexually frustrated wife of the forever drunk headmaster, his social ambitions frustrated by a.lack of the required funds! I understand he was later charged for embezzlement! Funny, huh? No Indo classmate thought that funny! Perhaps you ought to be commiserated with rather than be scorned for your N cowardice! My dearest N! It continued even at QC, but not among Indos! Only the poor Ns! The Ns from a.more affluent background tried to alleviate that by calling me baba (the full nickname was offensive to them as well), not your preference which gave much needed comfort to you in your hate of self! Need I say more? You're welcome to the education, N, but I'm afraid you will always be a self-hating ...N!